Who I Wanna Be.....

The great thing about music is it's ability to say what you cannot put into words but someone else can. It's like they enter your brain, they're taking a documentary of your life or writing the novel of your life. Who do I want to be? I wanna be a lot of things but to someone special, I know someone that said, or better yet sung it best.

I wanna be your lake or your bay
And any problems that you have
I wanna wash 'em away
I wanna be your sky
So blue and high
And everytime you think of me
I wanna blow your mind

I wanna be your air
So sweet and fair
So when you feel that you can't breathe
Ma, I'll be there

I wanna be your answer, all the time
When you see how I put your life before mine
With no question

When all the love feels gone
And you can't carry on
Don't worry, girl
I'm gonna take it from here
Just as sure as the sun will shine
Every morning, everytime
Don't worry, girl
I'm gonna take it from here

I wanna hold your hands
Review all your plans
I wanna make sure everyone of your dreams will stand
I wanna be your Broadway show on review
(Why)
So I can act out how God was when he made you
I wanna be your lighthouse when you get lost
I'll light a bright and shining path to help you across
I wanna be your mother, wait
See what I see
And when you see that can't nobody hold you like me
Cause I love you

When all the love feels gone
And you can't carry on
Don't worry, girl
I'm gonna take it from here
(Take it from here, baby)
Just as sure as the sun will shine
Every morning, everytime
Don't worry, girl (no no)
I'm gonna take it from here

And when there's no one there to hold
And you realize the world is cold
Don't worry, girl
I'm gonna take it from here
That's what I'm gonna do
Just as sure as the sun will shine
Every morning, everytime
(Don't you worry, baby girl, baby girl)
Don't worry, girl
(Baby girl)
I'm gonna take it from here
(I'll take you wherever you want)

Give me one reason why we should not be leaving
This world is so deceiving, the time is now
Let's fly away speeding
Through the Garden of Eden
Where all the sweet breathing of love surrounds

When all the love feels gone
And you can't carry on
Don't worry, girl
I'm gonna take it from here
Just as sure as the sun will shine
Every morning, everytime
Don't worry, girl (no no)
I'm gonna take it from here

Give me one reason
Why we should not be leaving
This world is so deceiving
The time is now
Lets fly away speeding
(We'll fly away)
Through the Garden of Eden
Where all the sweet and breathing
Of love surrounds
(Lets get away)

When all the love feels gone
And you can't carry on
Don't worry, girl
I'm gonna take it from here
Just as sure as the sun will shine
Every morning, everytime
Don't worry, girl
I'm gonna take it from here
(I got somethin' I wanna tell ya baby)

Love ain't always the way they write in books
(No, no)
See there's the good guys
And also heartbreak crooks
Your hearts the real book
Just take a look inside
'Cause it's a colorful illustrated guide

So there you go
Don't worry
I'll be the one
To help you weather the storm
I'll be there mami
No matter what time
No matter what place
You can always count on me
I'll take it from here

Take It From Here - Justin Timberlake (don't judge haha)

Lonely Love

You just cannot control who you fall for, its one of those things that aren't symmetric and that's what drives us crazy. We do not understand the rules, we cannot cheat at it and succeed, we cannot prepare for it and that's what scares us. We just don't know. The opposite of the common rule of physics that what goes up must come down is true. The principal deals with the singular because if there was anything else present, then that second object would create a force to oppose the rule, as best and for as long as it can oppose gravity. When you fall in love instead of us or we then you have to get back up by yourself. The person you fell for wasn't there to catch you and may not be there to help you up, but one day you'll get tired of looking at the sky and wondering about all the things you can do and you'll go do them and if you fall on your face... looking at the same blade of grass can only be so interesting for so long until you want to travel and see more.

Forgiveness

So what, I made a turnover, I threw the ball out of bounds, fouled their star player. For that play, you are the goat, you just fucked up and for that play, someone can say they aren't as much of a fuck up as you... But if you want to become the G.O.A.T. then you go on defense and make up for it. But do not make that same mistake again, if he keeps going right then force him left. You gotta know that the game is not over even if it feels like it is, those are called halftimes. The second half can be a whole another story. But if you lose this game, know that the people are only going to remember the fuck ups. And you know what, they don't know shit about the game.

First Love Part 2

Now I wrote a post a while ago titled First Love. Back then, first love was a different love, it was when you went into a relationship so excited that someone would be into you of all people. I know it did wonders for me but after that ended, my biggest fear was never being able to feel that way again. I said to be open and ready for Second Girl and for awhile I didn't think I would ever find her. Second to me, wasn't going to be the next girl but the girl I have to settle for, Second Place. But check this out, to have a place system, you have to be in some type of competion that will eventually end. You shouldn't want it to end, love should not be a race to you because races end quick. Second Girl comes in the one second you wont expect it. Second Girl can be your first love. Now how the fuck does that work? When I was in kindergarten I learned that one comes before two. But you forgot the several denotations of Second and First. In terms of love, I want first place and Second Girl can be the one to do that. Second Girl, you wasn't supposed to happen but God added a second to my life so that the hours, days and years will never be the same.

Injuries

They're gonna happen and they're gonna hurt like hell. Some, may linger and be with you the rest of your life. It won't ever feel right. You will never be able to move the same way. It was great when you could do whatever you wanted on the court, you was untouchable. But damn, why'd it have to happen at my peak? Is that all for me? Did I mess up? And the most important question, WHY? You're HUMAN, not a god and life sucks. There is no team that has ever had a perfect season. They tell you that no one is perfect, but that practice makes perfect. I wish they would make up their mind too. You just have to rehab, take care of your body, take care of you because watching on the sideline can fuck with your head. And when you go back out there, fuck you're bad knee, you're gonna bust your ass to win because it means that much to you. Never go back and say that you could of done more.

Timing

There are four quarters, 12 minutes each. You only have so many possessions to make the right decision on the court we call life and plain and simple, you're not going to win every quarter. I know, I know, that's a pessimistic way of thinking about it Prince and I'm not going to do the cliche thing and say I'm a realist. I am fully aware of what planet I'm on and for the most part I understand the laws of physics. So I feel that saying I'm a realist is about as redundant as saying that I'm Black. Duh. You see, timing is everything. You need just enough time to do what you need to do and you have to use it wisely. Shit you haven't heard before, I'm just presenting it in a different way. You can tell yourself that, "If I had one more shot, we would of won, and it wouldn't hurt.", but you have another game to focus on that's coming up. "I've never lost a game, I just ran out of time."- Michael Jordan.

The Shot

Every shot doesn't go in. That's just how things work. The greatest of all time didn't win every game, make every shot and some will be forgotten in a matter of a few years. But that last shot will play over and over in your head, that is, until you get another. Shooters are supposed to have the shortest memory. If you've missed your last 10 shots, you best believe that number 11 is going in. Sometimes it doesn't matter if you've worked your ass of the entire game or if you set yourself up for the prefect bucket, it may just not go your way. You may just not get that call. You know you should of and anyone with half a brain knows you should of but somehow, by some wacky incidence, you failed. Or did you? What do you do after your missed shot? Michael said it best, "I've missed more than 9000 shots in my career. I've lost almost 300 games. 26 times, I've been trusted to take the game winning shot and missed. I've failed over and over and over again in my life. And that is why I succeed" Maybe the good looking shot was just God's way of showing you how good it can feel when you're in the zone. When everything is perfect. Why did he throw the slight gust of wind or have the ball come off your fingertips the way it did? Because that wasn't your shot. You should of passed it. The defense got in the way and because you was selfish, you lost There's a better basket coming up though. Your basket and that shit is definitely going in. Your 11th basket.