Yea, This Is Why

You know, I write these blogs for a few of reasons. One, I can be serious for once and get whatever is bothering me off of my chest. My mind is always running, especially at night. Two, to help others and attempt to provide some type of guidance. And three... in hopes that she will see these and something will tell her that I'm the one she needs. Actions speak louder than words but sometimes we need to slow down, sit down and soak it in.... I like how that sounds, I want her to read this and if shes standing by any chance, have to take a seat because my words hit her like a ton of bricks. It would be nice to have my words carry such weight. You see here, I can show a whole another side to Kwaun. I call this person Q. Why Q? Q is the leading male role in Love & Basketball, the character in Juice that survives and earns the respect of his peers(don't wanna kill the movie if you haven't seen it) and finally, most people think my name starts with that letter and I've always wanted a cool nickname. But back to the subject at hand, I realized that if I saw a girl write some of the things I write and knew they were about me, I would do one of two things. If I barely know her or we have somewhat of an awkward relationship then I would block her on facebook but if she was someone special and she meant to me as much as I appear to mean to her, I would like to think that I'd be flattered. Some of that statement is wishful thinking. In the movies, this would be the part where its revealed to her how much she means to me and, I magically appear outside her window with a boombox playing I Wanna Be Your Man by Zapp & Roger or something like that. Then she runs outside in her pajamas to embrace me outside her door and its happily ever after. I blame Disney. It's a common thing for me. Each time I'm writing a new post about Her, its so that in the modern version of my movie, I magically receive a text from her saying simply I Miss You.